31 posts from 2007

What's your favorite game to play?

My obsessions!  LOL

So I heard this song the other day.. it was written by Lifehouse's Jason Wade.

It reminds me of my friend, Jessica Lee, who died in a car wreck three years ago.  x[

Makes me sad, but I can't stop listening to it.

Lifehouse - From Where You Are

Christmas went well.  I wasn't as excited about it this year though.  Not really sure why.  Probably because everyone was busy, and I don't get to see my friends much anymore.  I have too much free time on my hands I guess. =/  I really miss my niece, and Romona, and my older brother.  They're still living in Arizona.  And at times I wish they didn't move away, but I'm kind of glad my brother's not around anymore.  As bad as that sounds.  We don't get along too well and I can't stand it when he lives with us.  He puts everyone around him through too much bullshit.  That's a pretty awful thing to say, but it's the truth.  Don't get me wrong I love my brother, but.. he's fucked up our brother/sister relationship pretty much beyond repair.  I think.  =/  Too much shit happened in the past.  We don't even talk to one another, even when he's living with us.  I have a closer relationship with Romona (his ex, my niece's momma) than him, we're like sisters.

Hmm, anyway.  I talked to Chrissy's parents in the past couple weeks, made a few phone calls to them on each of their birthdays.  They were beyond happy to hear from me.  They're like my second parents.  And at times, they've been closer to me than my own parents.  They know pretty much everything about me, stuff I couldn't even tell my parents.  They claim me as their 'second daughter'.  Well, the thing is.. I haven't seen them since last December, over a year ago.  I feel really bad about not visiting them.  I used to see them all the time until Chrissy moved out and got her own house with her boyfriend/fiance.  I regret not staying in touch with them.  It kind of breaks my heart thinking about it.  There is a reason I didn't go visit them though.  My ex-boyfriend that I've mentioned is their son (Chrissy's brother).  And as much as I wanted to go over to their house, I couldn't because I was afraid of seeing him.  I was very easily convinced by him, I shouldn't have been.  He was a straight up dick to me, all the time.  I was in love with him, and he used that to his advantage every chance he got.  Well, I'm definitely not in love with him anymore, but I still don't want to be around him.  Knowing him, he'll probably talk shit to me.  Buttttt.. that's nothing I can't handle.  ^^  I look forward to seeing Chrissy's parents again!  WOO

And Rock Band is consuming too much of my time!  AHHH  XD 

Oh, and Katrina, a friend who I haven't seen or hung with in a long time, is having her birthday party Friday, and I'm going.  ^^  She's got me really stoked.  Hanging out with her is always fun, we have so many great memories.  We're suppose to be going to Chuck E. Cheese's!  LOL  There ya go.. we know how to have fun!  And she's turning 20!

Hmm, and I really really like Alex, even if he is so far away.  Being in a long-distance relationship really makes me appreciate the little things more (not that I didn't before).  I really want this to last.  <3  And I only hope it will.  I can't wait to see his smiling face for the first time (assuming things will go well until then).  x]

Wow, it's been one year since I've had this blog?  Doesn't seem like that long.  x]

So, today, my parents, little brother, and I will be going to my grandparents' houses to celebrate Christmas.  You're probably wondering why so early.  Well, we're going to a concert on Saturday and my grandparents' houses are on the way there, which will save us a trip.  ^^ 

Hmm, today we're also going to Tulsa to watch a movie and probably go out to eat at Casa Viva's.  We eat there EVERY time we go to Tulsa.  I'm not complaining though, their food is delicious!  xD  Then, on Saturday we're going to the Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert.  I can't wait!  x]  Their show is absolutely amazing and my family looks forward to it every year.  This will be my fifth time seeing them in concert, and we have great seats (like always xD).  Kendra will be tagging along with us again this year.  It'll be tons of fun, and maybe I'll actually take some new pictures.

I need sleeeeeep now.

xx

Hmm, so I did this about a year ago, but it still pertains to me completely.

that I might be falling for him.

I have to admit, it isn't something I'm used to or something that I was seeking, but I'm so glad things are going the way they are.  He makes me happy, something no guy in my past was able to accomplish.  Gah, just thinking about him, cracks a smile upon my face.  ^^

But also, considering I've never been in a serious relationship, I worry that there's always a possibility of me screwing things up.  I'm not used to being so open because I never had that with my previous relationship.  I feel like my ex kind of ruined it for me, now.  GRR.  Every time I wanted to talk to my ex openly and seriously, he never did.  So I'm greatly lacking communication skills because of it.  I want to be open with Alex as much as he is with me, but I just don't know how.  Or sometimes it's not that I don't know how, but I'm worried it'll come out wrong.. I'm not really sure.  Although, I am slowly opening up more and more, even if it is a little at a time.  I just hope it doesn't take too long because he's not someone I want to lose.  Especially, if it's because of me..

Mmkay, so my night time cough medicine is kicking in now... must get sleep.

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What's your favorite thing to drink when it's cold outside?

Hot chocolate, of course!  ^___^

LOL.. oh yeah, we're cool.  xD

Chrissytori

it's 3 in the morning..

what am i still doing up?!  xD

So, classes are finally over for this semester!  WOO!  But Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, I have finals.. yuck.  x[  I still have homework to finish tomorrow.. =[  dammmmnn.  I always turn into such a procrastinator the last week of school.  x]  Ah, well.

My friend, Alisha, called me today.. to tell me she's pregnant!  Seems like everyone's popping out babies these days!  LOL 

Romona is coming to visit soon.... or so she says.. x]  She better because I wanna see my niece!!!  O__o

And, I still have lots of Christmas shopping to do!  HELP ME!  x[

LOL.. pictures of whatever.. I still need to take some pics for someone though... x]

was sssooooo much fun!

Brittnie and I went to wal-mart, and we LAUGHED the whole way there AND the whole way back.  I haven't laughed that much in awhile, but that's how it is everytime we hang out.  We pretty much laugh our asses off at everything... x]
She absolutely kills me.. <3  And it's hilarious because we always finish each other's sentences and we ALWAYS know exactly what the other is thinking.  We're such nerds.. =P

And Kendra has decided she's leaving Brittnie and I here all alone in Mudhole for her one-week old relationship (inside joke)!  But no, seriously, she really is leaving us.. and moving back to Oklahoma City for her boy toy. ><  KENDRA!!

For some odd reason, I'm experiencing that homesick feeling?  I don't know why though.  Kind of feels like something is missing.. =/  Or maybe I'm just lovesick..

Hmm.. Brittnie's coming over in about an hour!  WOO!  Fun, fun, FUN.  xD

And Chris (Brittnie's boyfriend) apologized to me for calling me an 'asshole friend'.  Amazing.. never thought I'd see the day.. =]

RAWR.

I can't wait until Chirstmas break..  because I want to RELAX and have NO homework!  LOL

Well, Brittnie told me earlier that Chris (her boyfriend) is actually going to let her go out every other weekend (once he gets back from the army) which is a big shocker!  O__O  He used to never let her do anything with me because he thought everytime we went out somewhere that Brittnie was cheating on him.  Now, WHY he thought this?  I have no idea.  He knows I don't flirt with guys, let alone ever date any.. so it's not like we'd be out scoping out guys and shit.  Now, whether he was joking or being serious I never really knew.  He's an EXTREMELY complicating person.. lol.  As far as I know, he's changed a little bit since he's been in the army.. (hopefully he stays that way XD) because before he was psycho!  O__o

Brittnie's baby smiled for the first time the other day and she was lucky enough to get a picture of him.  ^__^

Awww, isn't he cuuuute!  x]

Monty

And so... I really want a cat!!!  *RANDOM*

And I really want to talk to Alex!  x[

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