shut up and listen!

I just chipped off all my black nail polish.  It was giving me a bad vibe, if that makes any sense.  Guess that's one of the perks that comes with being semi-ocd.  =/

So I've realized something.  I've been sitting around with my best friend lately, and we've actually been talking a whole lot more because she's been going through a lot and of course I'm always here to talk with her if she needs absolutely anything.  Well, as we've been hanging out and having these deep meaningful conversations, I've started thinking about some of my other friends.  I'm close with all of them, no doubt, but I've been thinking how out of all of my girl friends, I really only have three of them that will actually sit down, listen to what I have to say as well as me listening to them, and really "hear" me out. 

Now as for one of my friends in particular, she 'never' listens to me.  It never really occurred to me before, because she wasn't always like this, but now it's so fucking obvious.  We'll being having a conversation, she'll tell me about her problems, i'll listen and give feedback, but as soon as I try to say anything about my life or my problems, it's just like BAM, she starts talking about herself again.  She doesn't even acknowledge that I even said a damn thing.  So since I've noticed that she's doing this, it's come to the point where I don't even bother trying to say anything about myself because it pisses me off when she changes the subject as soon as I open my fucking mouth.  Now I'm not the type of person that gets pissed off easily, but this is really racking my brain at the moment.  >__<  I have so much I want to tell this person, but how can I do that if she's not really listening to me?  It's just going to become this ordeal where she's in the dark about everything in my life.  I don't want that, but I can't force her to listen.